I work out regularly and am in excellent shape for mid-50s, yet I feel so unattractive because of the lack of intimacy and his porn addiction. But when I reset it, the pattern never changes. He’s since set the computer to erase his history.
When I raised this, plus my concerns about pop-ups of teenage porn sex, he assured me he was just looking at “regular sex” porn. I became alarmed after noticing that he was doing this while I was at an appointment with my teenage daughters (from a prior marriage) and my other teenage daughter was still at home. Through his internet search history, I’ve discovered that he’s regularly masturbating to internet porn, usually 15 websites daily. I’ve tried to get him to engage in more intimacy but have been repeatedly rejected. We dated for 12 years before we married, two years ago. My husband and I have always had a minimal sex life.
